This last week has been the most unstructured time I've had in more than a year. I finally had enough quiet time to myself that I was able to take care of a few organizing and publishing projects. Having those done helped me reclaim enough energy to go on some nice walks.
I guess I just needed some time. It's been ages since I've felt some foreward movement. Now I remember how one happily-finished project gives energy for the next project.
I feel blue tonight, but that's pretty natural considering all that has gone on this last month.
Yesterday, a friend reminded me of a really embarrassing episode I had with an off-label prescription ten years ago. I said, "I'm so embarrassed that you still have that in your memory... but... that's sure a reminder of how much pain I was in back then, and I'm not there anymore."
She agreed with me heartily, and that sure felt good.
I'm not sure if the people closest to me (family) see the big changes I'm moving through, but I have been feeling glad that K, P, and P notice big changes happening for me. I still feel pretty raw, but maybe I will feel more energy in the next few months.