"Wow... I find it hard to believe that such a creative person such as you would 'fall back' on a job that doesn't seem very satisfying. Why wouldn't you do something with your creativity?"
"I think you're really busy right now pursuing lots of different paths, and many people are using you/depending on you for too much. What you're trying to do right now seems much harder than if you had a full-time job, and you're not getting paid."
A dear friend in the Bay Area sent me a box of her newest preserves with an encouraging note.
A warm thank-you note from another woman in the Bay Area who learned how to make jam and chutney with me last month.
I just don't know how to put it all together yet so that I can make money, feel inspired, and still keep the house/family responsibilities humming. I'm touched by my friendships and the unexpected sweetness that came in the mail today, but I feel like shit because I don't know how to make money right now. I don't even have time to problem-solve about it. If I'm lucky, I may have three kid-free hours tomorrow. Maybe I can come up with a solution for the rest of my life then.
I'm pretty tired of banging my head against this wall.