I've had a hard week. Members of my extended family aren't doing well on different levels. The Curious Farm business has been exciting and challenging and has squeezed me to the limit, as most new business ventures will do. It's been frustrating to feel viscerally how our family dynamics need to change in order to accomodate this business. Is it worth it? I'm not sure yet, actually. My computer is seriously broken so I'm unable to communicate easily on my websites or on twitter. Friends are busy and are as stretched as I am in different ways.
But. I try to keep my focus on the present and on the positive so here are some things that have made me happy this week:
--There are snow peas on the vines. A few. They are there. It's midsummer's eve. Okay, I'll take it.
--Though the front landscaping is shot to pieces because I haven't been able to tend it at all this year, the vegetable garden has begun to produce, and -- though it's a shadow of last year's glory -- I'm thrilled.
--I sold out of the first tonic kraut I brought to the Beaverton Farmers Market. I was worried about how it would turn out because I didn't know if therapeutic amounts of turmeric would turn bitter during fermentation, but I loved how it tasted and other people did, too. I can't wait to make a more high-powered version tomorrow (which will be ready in August!). There's a bit more left from the first batch that I'll bring to the Market this Saturday, in case you're interested.
--I managed to clean thoroughly two bathrooms this week. A miracle.
--D's aunt sent me a letter and said she was proud of me.
--I know that it's all going to be okay. Nothing will be perfect, but I can depend on finding joy in simple things.