equinox

I have a tradition to check-in here on the spring equinox:  2008, 2007, 2006.  

This tradition is left over from my old, hand-coded ("home-spun" if you will) online journal called Cook's Diary.  I began that project more than a decade ago, and I had to put it on hiatus a couple of times because I shared too much there and a few people misused my writing. 

Here is a diary entry from spring equinox 2001.  Here is one from 2000 -- something I wrote soon after D and I got together.  Here is one from 1999. 

Here we are now in 2009.  I'm still shell-shocked.  Let me take stock... 

There is a really nice husband.  He still has lovely, tired eyes.  He has grown so much at work, and he is turning our home into a great place with his own hands, smarts, and tractor.  He's a wonderful dad.  I don't know how he does everything he does -- especially when I freak out about making dinner.  At night, he puts his hand on my back, and I just melt and heal.  He doesn't have to do anything but put his hand on me.  He is magic.

There is a kid who is 4, and she keeps telling strangers that her mom is 44.  "I am one 4, and my mom is two 4's!"  She likes to do puppet shows, and last week she pretended she was a mermaid dog who was making pear cake. 

There has been illness and death all around over here this year.  In her grief, my mother has been upsetting.  I'm not sure what to do for her right now.  Our last conversation left me feeling really icky about my own life because she was so critical of things that are important to me. 

Thanks to D and his patience, we finished the new raised bed for his mother so this weekend we will dump dirt into it and try to find some asparagus rhizomes to put in one corner of the new bed.  Now L will have space to grow her own things, and the bed will be raised a bit to help her use it without discomfort.

Any thoughts on your inner garden?  Equinox is a time to notice what's stirring within us.

Blessings and growth to you!  Happy spring!