today on my own

I could paint a broad landscape about what life has been like here lately, but -- even though I'm married and the life is shared -- it's not my story to tell. 

So I will tell you that after no break from the kid for many days, I got to spend today doing my own thing.  It was nice.  I ran errands with a friend, visited her garden, and then went off on my own for awhile.

When I got back in the evening, I had to cook those two hapless folks some steamed veggies and tofu because they had been down to the Bite and had eaten ice cream and steak sandwiches and candy and stuff all day.  D said, "Well, at least I kept her away from the fried food!"   And I said, "Great!  But if you're watching E, then you need to make sure she gets real food, too, or we both pay the price."

[Last week his mother surprised me by volunteering to take her to a children's play and then kept E out until the early afternoon.  When they got back, both of them were shakey from low-blood sugar.  Like, duh...  So I had to feed them both an emergency, high-protein snack.  Where is the relief for me in these sorts of outings?!  It always ends up being more work for me in the end.  Things need to change big time because I am out of energy.]

But I could see my words going out his other ear before I finished saying them.  He is on another planet these days (that is a reality I observe and can share here).

Hopefully, this next week, we can sink into some healthier living for awhile.  I hope to have a little more flexibility.  I'm at the end of my rope.

Comments

[Stephanie]

I can relate to the food thing... sometimes I wonder if my husband has some secret agenda to feed the kids every horrible food available, since there are things I just don't let in the house. Maybe he wants to be the 'good' parent... :-)

[growingcurious]

Yes, that "good parent/bad parent" dynamic is definitely going on over here.