saturday

Last night I dreamed that I wrote a post here to apologize for not posting recently.  When I woke up, I had to check to make sure I didn't write it in the middle of the night when I was up with a round of insomnia.

It's been a rather hard week.  Lots of PTSD.  Bad memories.  Hard dreams.  Tough therapy.  Also, I'm beginning to realize in a clear way (instead of just in the back of my mind) that I have fibromyalgia.  The pain is significant and sometimes keeps me from sleeping.  It's been going on for three years or so, but it's getting worse, and I need to address it directly.

The salsa I made with the tomatillos I showed you in my last post tasted great when I finished with it, but I decided I was too tired to jar it up so I left it on simmer and went to bed.  The next morning, it was so bitter.  I tried a few tricks to even out the flavors, but I didn't succed.  I had to throw out the pot of salsa, which also had 10 pounds of precious ripe tomatoes from our garden.  I hate it when things like that happen.  Thankfully, I haven't had too many disasters yet this year.

The very wonderful thing that is happening is that D decided last week that we had enough money to do our fireplace project this year, and -- lucky us -- our tile person had a bit of time to fit us in before he begins a bigger project.

The fireplace in the living room has always been an eyesore -- band-aid pink brick that was cracked, stained, and chipped.  The fire box itself didn't work either.  So I found some tumbled marble (!) that has nice, earthy colors (similar to our wood floors), and we should have a new, working, beautiful fireplace done soon.

Tile always looks different once it's home and out of the showroom.  I have worries and regrets about what I picked (mostly when I try to imagine the fireplace through my mother's eyes -- which is important to note), but I'm excited by how the new colors will open up the room.  I won't have to avert my eyes to that huge chunk of wall anymore.

D took E off on an adventure today.  I mowed the grass this morning and will go down and start arranging the books and furniture downstairs for a few hours until they return.

Comments

[Furniture Stores]

Found this post searching for something else, but OMG... LOVE salsa made with tomatillos. Sounds pretty good about now. :)

[Stephanie]

Have you decided what to do about the fibromyalgia? I understand it can be hard to treat because they (whoever 'they' are LOL) don't really know what causes it. I hope that you find a good solution. Chronic pain affects everything...

I hope your new fireplace knocks your socks off! :-)

[growingcurious]

Stephanie, I don't do well on the kinds of medications prescribed by allopathic doctors for this sort of thing.

I think I need to keep working on my sleep and to make renewed efforts to nourish my nervous system and adrenals.

But I do a lot of that already, and I'm in a lot of pain so I'm not sure what the road ahead will be like. I'm worried.

[Stephanie]

I sure hope the Naturopath can help you with this pain... she sure can work wonders!

[Janice M. Epstein]

for some of us with fibro, sleep is key and bad dreams can be ruinous for the medicinal uninterrupted sleep i know my body craves. i have a few good books on the subject i can share. i'll be sending you positive sleep vibes in the meantime.