to be fierce

To be fierce, one needs to love.  "Fierceness" without love is just aggression.

When I think about the difference between me now and me ten years ago, I see fierceness.  In certain situations, I make quick, clear, unrevokable decisions.  They are the right decisions, and they are not easy to make usually.

I can become a "mamma bear" really fast.  I'm surprised when this happens.

I had to do this today, and I'm heartbroken over the whole situation that required it. I might write about what happened another time.  Right now I'm trying to figure out how this fierce mamma part of me came to be and how she knows when to take over.  You know?

It's exhausting when she comes out.

My adrenal system is shot.  I've spent hours going over every part of what happened (and I'm really good at raking myself over the coals, just so you know), but fierce mamma bear handled it all just fine.  My heart hurts, though.

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Good for you....but I know it's hard....so hard....

[Stephanie]

Instincts have so much meaning, especially when you're a parent.
It sounds like you're embracing and curious about this part of you. Good for you!